6.6 lost last week

I did pretty good last week. I lost 6.6 pounds. Trying to keep up my spirits and understand that I won't do that this week but shooting for at least a three pound lost. Need to ramp up exercise during the day and increase some food intake. Massive cravings for sweets right now. Need some candy to knock it out or something.

Valentines Day AGAIN, , ,

Today is the day that women dread. It is the day that the world judges you for being loved or not. Even married you still feel the pressure to have the world see that your relationship is good. Well mine is in one of the many valleys of love and I would frankly roll my eyes at anything he gives today. He is in a mood and I just don't feel like having to continuously focus on making him feel better all the freaking time right now. The baby turned 4 yesterday and He seems to be almost jealous at the attention. I am so sorry your mom didn't make a big deal of your birthday but my boys are going to get the individual attention they deserve. I would love flowers. I would but I will not tell him that. Either you send them or you just deal with the face that I will have an attitude.

I find myself at a cross roads. I am now married and I have three boys (through adoption) and I still want to have a baby. My life is totally different but my body is also. It is 40 pounds heavier. I started to gain trying to have a baby. Not because I was pregnant but because I believed so badly that I was that I allowed myself to not exercise and eat for two and it was only one. Then every month when I learned it was only me I ate to feel better and then hoped again to be pregnant. Well mentally I am giving birth to this baby and my new health. I have three little boys, one big boy and three four legged boys who all need me and will not worry me to death. I am good looking woman and it is time for me to remind all of them of that. Plus frankly it will really piss alot of people off for me to look good and I just feel like doing that.